Loving my life...

Loving my life more as I get older.  I have always loved life.  Now, as I a older, it seems a bit more precious to me.  I am tired these days and have trouble sleeping all night long which makes for longer days.  It also makes for more thankful days.  Days that I get to live this amazing life in the midwest with a loving husband, three adult children their spouses and two incredible grandchildren. 

I am starting my vacation tomorrow.  A much needed one for sure.  I hope to challenge myself to rest more.  I hope to sit for hours of quiet times and reflect on where I am at in that moment of time.  I hope to spend time talking with my grandchildren and truly listening to what they have to say.  I hope to relax and reflect.  

Wish me luck.   

This morning, I had the sweet pleasure of sitting next to my baby sister on the love seat and share in coffee and conversation.  She is here because our aunt has passed away and tomorrow we will be going to her funeral.  

This baby sister of mine has lost weight and looks so good.  She is dieting, eating healthy foods and exercising.  I am so proud of her.  She has taught me a thing or two this morning about determination.  She also showed me a new app for my cell phone to help me on my journey of getting healthier and losing weight myself.  

I love my little sister for so many reasons.  First, because she came into my life when I was so young and she became my little shadow, my playmate, my first best friend.  I would love to "dress" her up and brush her hair.  She had the softest baby curls in the world.  I would find anything I could and use it as "hairbows" or hair accessories.  I remember taking the rubber bands and ribbons off of dolls to use on my little sister.  

I love Patty as an adult sister.  She has battled a great disease called breast cancer.  She is a survivor, I believe almost 5 years now.  I'm so proud of how courageous she was while going through surgeries, losing her right breast and then the reconstructive surgery of a new breast.   She smiled and allowed her doctors and nurses to laugh as she was enduring chemo and radiation.  

I love her for the wife and mother she is to her husband and two children.  She is devoted, loving and firm as all mothers and wives should be.  

I will enjoy this short time with my little sister and make some sweet memories while she is here in our home.  Life is all about love and loving.  Everyday we wake up, we chose to be happy, we chose to love, we chose to enjoy this day in our life.  I chose to love this sweet sister of mine with all of my heart.  I'm so thankful to have her in my life.  

Late in the afternoon, all is well.  The house is so quiet....a welcome change for me.  The dogs lay at my feet listening to me type.  I enjoy this time alone in my house. The sun is low in the sky. It's cool out and a small breeze blows.  I am alone.  This is a rare occasion.

 In honor of a much needed day off, I decide to write in this romance blog of mine.  Writing is so soothing to my mind. It allows me to forget the world for the moment. My heart flows down to my fingers on this page.

 I want you to know the love... I feel.  I want you to know the desires I feel when he is near.  I want you to know the peace that comes from this perfect love I have in my life. I wish for you the dedication that is mine. I know this is sacred.  He says he will love me forever.  I believe this to be true.

So wanting this for you, is my way of wishing it for you.   I wish that you could have all that I do.  In my perfect world for you, your love is as my love is.  Your princess or prince charming is dedication only to you.  They desire only you. They love you more than life itself.

I want happiness to wake you each and every morning.  I was rest to come so easy at night.  I want joy to be found in your daily routine.  I want you to know your value, your worth.   All things in due time.

The windows show a setting sun.  As another day dares to close, may you know your loved

Love...

Love looked deeply into my eyes and told me that this was forever.

Love cradled my heart as if it were crystal and very fragil.

Love held me close... so tenderly, that it felt the same as if i were holding myself.

I am one with this love. I am complete.

Close my eyes..open my arms.... share my heart and love until the end of my days.

This day is done.... my night has settled in. My mind is charmed by visions I have created. Where there is a place in the meadows in which only sunshine and warm breezes flow. I am playfully running towards your arms, all the while never taking my eyes off your face. You tease me as I reach you and you turn sideways. You catch my arm and slowly pull me in. More warmth than even the sunshine can create, when I am in your arms. More peace than even the meadows can give. There is no one in the world at that very moment, just you and I. The love we share outshines the sun. Our passion makes the stars take notice even as daylight reigns for hours. Time stands and waits for a love like ours. The air we breath is mingled only with our kisses. My eyes are closed...and I can see love more clearly as the sun sets on my meadow. Darkness lays the blanket as we sleep under our stars. Yes, day and night.....then again and again. But time stopped and waited because the love was so deep. And once again...This day is done...my night has settled in.

In my heart...

In my heart...

Is where you will live forever. 

In my heart...

Is where our love first began.

In my heart...

Is where your passion explodes.

In my heart...

Is where as long as you are in my heart, nothing else will ever matter.

In my heart...

Loving...after many years

Yes....to love after 33 years ....is truly amazing.  He loves me today, more than ever.  He shows me all the time, with all his actions that he loves me so.  He brings me my favorite coffee in the morning as he kisses me awake.  He makes me a hot bubble bath and then moves to make room as I climb in the tub to share.

 His eyes light up when I walk into the room.  He whole being changes for me.  He is still chivalrous in many actions...opening car doors and helping me on with my coat.  I love him today, more than ever.  I make his favorite dinner and enjoy his compliments.  I wash his clothes and make our bed and do sweet little things that are important to him.

We are a team.  We've been together for most of our life.  I can't remember a day or time without him there.  I rely on him for so many things.  He takes care of all my financial needs.  He provides security and income and does so in a very loving manner.  He is my rock.  Without him, I don't know where I'd be.

We are parents.  We share three beautiful children together.  Yes, grown and all gone..but all products of our wonderous love.  We share grandchildren as well..oh how sweet it is to grow old with this man that I love.  To know that he will always be there for me.  To know that I will never have to worry about my tomorrow ..because he takes good care of my todays. 

We are lovers.  Yes, after many years....a lifetime really....he still wants me and my love.  We hold hands and kiss softly.  He hugs me tight.  Ours is a comfort that many will never understand.  Ours is a commitment that will never end.  We are married...husband and wife.  Till death do us part.  I fell in love with this handsome young man...a love from my youth..a lifetime ago.  I fell in love with this handsome older man...again today...for many different reasons than the girl back then.  

Today..loving after many years, couldn't be any sweeter.  Today...loving...after many years is rare treasure.  I have something far richer than siler or gold. I have something that money can never buy.  I have the love of a man, that has been loving me his whole life.  

Loving...after many years....is truly amazing. 

Journey on the path of love...

Walking along while holding your hand....I am reminded of all the wonderful memories we have made. I stop and turn into you and stare into your face and into those amazing eyes. Those eyes that I have grown to love so much. With my gaze, I'm telling you to kiss me one more time. You understand and we kiss. But, what I was not prepared for was .....you kissed, as if it were the first time you've ever kissed me. I was blown away. ♥

 I held you tightly and felt the safety in your arms. I knew that no matter where our life would take us, that we would go this path together. That the journey was just beginning for this next half of our life. A journey not known...but it didn't matter. All that mattered was that you continue to hold my hand as we walked. Not once did you let go. When we finally stopped to rest, you knelt before me and kissed my hand so gently.

Looking into your eyes of love, I saw my best friend. I saw my sweetheart. I looked at my handsome lover, my lifelong partner...and I knew that nothing would ever be dull with you by my side.

Closing my eyes...I envisioned the paths that we would take and I made a wish and a promise. I promise you this..that as long as I'm living...my heart would always love you. And.. My wish, that you would never go a day without feeling my love

Sleeping in peace..and in love..forever.

When you left this morning for work, I was sleeping. I woke out of my slumber just enough to feel you kiss me goodbye. When I got home tonight from work, you were sleeping....I kissed you goodnight..you softly moved.

You lay sleeping now, while I am wide awake. When you wake at 4:30am....I will lay sleeping. I am the night owl...and you are the early bird. We are creatures of habit. Creatures of love.

And somedays...our only communication is our legs touching as we sleep. Our arms wrapped around each other as we toss and turn. I feel you cover me up at times when I start to shiver, I feel you pull me in closer to you as you warm up my body.

We become intertwined perfectly as we sleep. You snore sofly...but I never hear. I sleep peacefully knowing you will always be near to keep warm. I sleep peacfully knowing you will never leave me. As I'm sleeping, I can still feel the presence of your love for me.

With you in my life, I will sleep in peace and in love....forever.

Jan. 17th 2012

When I kiss your face..

When I kiss your face...

When I kiss you my love, I want to hold your face in my hands.

I want to look into those adorable eyes that I know so well.   I feel the gentle stubble from a long day of work.  I want to kiss your lips and then plant little kisses all over your face and forehead.

I want to kiss your neck and show you with my eyes how much I love and adore you.

I am me....being who I am....showing you how much love my heart can hold.

Showing you how much love I have to give...with each and every little kiss I place on your handsome face.   Yes...I will kiss you a million times and then....look forward to kissing you again.

When I kiss your face...it's the kiss of love.